thought 1:
i have been watching the news specifically msnbc and cnn every time that the tv is on. and i think i got addicted to the news since the 2008 election. having a man of color as a president gives me a different perspective about living in the united states, and in a lot of ways, i am even proud of being an american, a filipino-american. for the last two days, the iranian election is all over the news and the rally against the current iranian administration reminds me of the beginning of the iranian revolution against the shah. the majority of the individuals who are now part of the current administration took part of the movement to end the rule of the shah but now, these same individuals are acting like the “shah.”
thought 2:
while driving back home from work, yes, i do work on sundays.. i began to think of the san francisco bay area and i began to miss the bay tremendously. part of me is working a lot because i don’t want to have that moment where i began missing a place, a familiar place, and especially individuals who have touched my life. i keep myself occupied with work so i will not begin reminiscing.
thought 3:
i am re-reading “women who run with the wolves” and i think i have to re-read this book every 5 or 10 years. “once women have lost her and then found her again, they would contend to keep her for good. once they have regained her, they will fight and fight hard to keep her, for with her their creative lives blossom; their relationship s gain meaning and depth and health; their cycles of sexuality, creativity, work and play are reestablished; they are no longer marks for the predations of others; they are entitled equally under the laws of nature to grow and to thrive.” (estes, p20)
— reading this makes me think that this is where i am. i have regained my “natural” state and i am unwilling to lose it ever again.
writing in between & within spaces 